Current mood:

life is good

Huh what?!?!?

Um, whoa. Where do I go for these long periods or time???? God only knows!

I was driving home from work tonight and heard the great Living On A Prayer by the great Bon Jovi and it made me think of that one night at Marg's here in ManchVegas and how great a night that really was. It was warmish, I think (I was wearing a tank and jeans) and there were a bunch of us and a great crowd and that song came on and everyone starting singing along at the top of their lungs. Bon Jovi sings the best "rock out drunk" songs. I loved that night because I saw MLS Matt and wasn't afraid to talk to him like I always had been back in school. I've grown up so so SOOOoooooo much since high school that it amazes me every day. I love that I'm not intimidated by everyone I meet anymore and that I don't automatically default to thinking "they're so much cooler than me".

I loved that Matt didn't recognize me because I'd lost 50 lbs ;-)

Life is good. I keep saying it and it keeps on keeping on. Is it weird that I'm in love with paying bills? I hate money and I hate spending it, but I feel so grown up at the beginning of every month when I send out my rent and school loan payments and credit card bill. I have an electric bill! I'm still shocked at the fact that my Dartmouth loan will be gone after the first of March....$3200 in 7 payments :-D And my Perkins loan, which starts in March, will be mostly paid off by the extra monies my parents get by claiming me as a dependent (for the last time). Can you believe I pay $1100 a month to school loans and $500 for rent and yet my checking account never dips below $1000? Or that I can put $100 into savings every pay period and not miss it? Don't get me wrong, I'll have school debt probably into my late 30's, maybe even 40's depending on how the whole "buying a house, having a family" thing goes, but it's incredible the things I'm able to do right now financially. I feel empowered.

The job is good. I work with good people, I love the hours, and I even find myself thinking things as strange as "I really enjoy doing diffs" or "I hope I'm in chem tonight". I even enjoy the little spats with the nurses because I know when I'm right and whether they understand it or not I'm not going to give into them because they yell at me. As a med tech I understand this is a way to make ourselves feel more important (hehe), but why should the ER be allowed to ream us out because results were delayed by a machine wash and yet act like it's nothing when they mix up patients? (which has happened about 3 times in the last 2 weeks) or accuse us of losing specs that they never even sent? Stupid hos. It definitely won't be the same if Mere goes to school in the fall, she's my best new friend!, but c'est la vie. I'll just cross my fingers she goes to Boston and not Utah.

Oh, and I'm working out again, which is fabuloso. I would love to lose it all before the warm weather, but I'm giving myself alllllll year to lose a mere 25 lbs. A quasi-New Year's resolution, I suppose. I lost 3 a couple weeks ago, but then came down with the plague and couldn't work out for about a week and a half :-( Let's hope the momentum returns!

Home to Maine this weekend! I pray to God my parents don't read this thing, but just incase I will not yet name the super-awesome present my sister and I have come up with for them (or, you know, I suggested and she said "uhhh, sure"). It will be cute watching my bestest boy have man time with the little bro, it never fails to melt me a little seeing them hang out. And now Andrew has "big boy" toys like Star Wars foosball and air hockey, which I'm sure will provide plenty of entertainment for the masses. I love my family, I don't see them nearly enough, though my parents won't be around this weekend - it being their 25th wedding anniversary and all. 25 years, man, that's a damn long time these days.

On a totally non-sequitor note: J'adore my boyfriend! Two year anniversary is coming up fast, I better get crackin' on a gift! He wants to set a $50 limit, but I declare I can spend whatever I want, especially considering how he one-upped me hardcore at Christmas time (see previous entry for GIANT sapphires). Decisions, decisions.

Wow, it's almost 3 AM....though that's not all that late to me anymore - evening shift rocks! I will close with the possibility of Vegas in April?? Yeah!